Jeffrey James is the QUEEN!

The evolution of my Macaroons :)

2011-12-03T23:17:00.003+08:00

So i came back to Borneo with a goal, which is to learn how to make Macaroons:) I remember my first attempt. When I screwed up the whole batch (pictured above). I remember looking at it and thought that it was so ugly. All this while I thought that making Macaroons was easy. But damn it was quite hard.
The second batch got mixed up so in ended up looking like some form of cookies instead of macaroons. It still tasted like macaroons, but in terms of looks. It was quite off.
I made these third batch of pink macaroons with Ness and they turned out pretty good. We flavoured it with red bean filling and honestly, they looked suuper cute!
I made this light blue macaroons on my own, and they're quite nice, i didn't have time to make the filling so I filled them up with Peanut butter!
These are my recent ones. I tried the whole Christmas theme by adding green and red. The softness of the macaroon cookie was perfect as it just melts in your mouth but I screwed up the strawberry filling. Oh well, better luck next time :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Only time can tell

2011-12-02T23:11:00.002+08:00

I was talking to my best friend about relationships. From what I know her relationship seems stable. And I somehow envy her cause she has an understanding with her boyfriend.

I am now in a relationship, and I am known as a serial dater. But with this new relationship that I'm getting into, well, it can get emotionally draining. However, I am happy. I'm learning to adapt to this relationship and I am learning from my past mistakes. Like I try not to take things too personally and I try my best to let things go. Like I used to get angered by the smallest things, especially when they don't go my way.

But now I just take it in, breath for awhile, and let it go. Especially if it's something small.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect now but I am trying to work on it. Because in a relationship we work on the relationship and work on ourselves, not really for the other person, but to make us a better and more understanding person.

I'm doing this for myself because everyday is a new experience for me and I am learning more as I go deeper into this relationship. I really care for my partner and I really want to make this work. And so far, I can say that it's going reasonably well:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

I'm the Queen Bitch!

2011-12-02T22:52:00.002+08:00

So I attended the PhotoShoot for the Miss Universe 2011 finalists. Bear in mind this is a special Miss Universe and not the real kind that is organized in KK. So I am the emcee for the event and I decided to fool around with the crown. Since I'm the Queen and all:) But it's all for good fun and I really love the shoot!

I'm getting a little meaty though:(

xoxo

Jeffrey James

2011-11-12T18:58:00.000+08:00

I was contemplating on something an ex said to me earlier. I was talking about how serial daters are better than being a slut. But my ex made a good point, it isn't good to be a serial dater because whenever u date someone, you give a part of yourself to that person. So the more you date, the more you lose yourself and maybe eventually someday, there's nothing left to give.

So, dating is very draining, it's so draining emotionally and mentally when it doesn't go well. But of course, there are the good times of dating, which is why people, which is why I always like to date. I get excited with every new 'relationship' that I get into because the honeymoon period is just so awesome! It's not really a bad thing but that's something that needs to be worked on because it isn't healthy.

Like right now, I'm so drained emotionally and mentally but the other person isn't the one to blame. It just reached to the point where it seems like there's nothing left to talk about. But then again, I could be bi-polar. I could be emotionally unstable and I could be worrying too much.

But I will see how I can work this out and see what I can do. I guess I just gotta sleep on it :)

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Language?

2011-11-03T21:05:00.003+08:00

Before you proceed with my post, read this first http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/muhyiddin-decision-on-ppsmi-final/

So the article basically talks about how they are switching the teachings of Mathematics and Science from the usage of English to the usage of Malay. In general, they're switching the teaching back to Malay after only switching it to English a few years back.

A lot of people are angered by this, well the people who commented on Facebook. I got a little bit irritated by the fact that people are angered by this, I brought up China and Japan and said they were using their national language as their first language in teaching science and maths and they argued that it's not important for them cause they're the second and third largest economy in the world.

But honestly, even though converting back to Malay is a hassle and I don't agree that the government is switching the teachings back and forth, I have no problem and actually prefer Mathematics and Science in Malaysia being taught in Malay, the article further explains that the command in English can be improved in various other ways that don't require the usage of Maths and Science being taught in Malay. And it's true, It's good that they realize this issue.

However, I don't agree on the Deputy Prime Minister condemning the PAGE group as they are minorities in this issue, everyone deserve to be heard, and to be put down fairly instead of how he (DPM) handled it. If he were more diplomatic, he would have put them down in a more positive light saying that there are other methods of learning english and keeping the malay language rather than calling them 'Ketinggalan Zaman' (Backwards).

I am a proud Sabahan, and I am proud that I speak three languages, Fluent English, Reasonably good Malay and Mandarin, I wish the Sabahan Government implemented that students in Sabah have to learn the Kadazan language, I would have love to learn the language.

But when it comes down to Mathematics and Science, it all comes down to the syllabus, not on what language it is being taught in.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Delusional

2011-11-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

A friend of mine told me that someone bitched about me behind my back. And i replied by saying that it doesn't matter if people bitched about me. As long as the people who means the world to me (family, close/best friends) still love me for who I am, then the rest of the world can go and screw themselves because I don't care about what they think.

In all honesty, when i heard that someone bitched about me, it did hurt a bit. But when i really thought about it, it didn't matter. I didn't want to know who was the one who bitched about me and I chose not to care. We all live in a world where people talk about other people behind their backs. I'm not saying that I'm guilt free when it comes to these things, but I can honestly say that for people who are close to me, I don't bitch about them.

So today my friend told me the identity of the person who called me 'delusional' among other things. From a certain point, I am delusional, but I don't like that term, I prefer the term dreamer. I tend to dream alot about things that I want to get, and I know where I stand in life and even though I don't know what my future will be like.

However, when I thought about it, I never really talked bad about this person, and from what I know from the supposed 'friend' who bitched about me is that, he is no better than me, I am no better than him. Everyone bitches about everyone but at least I know who I will not be calling anymore.

Xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Savvy Into the Shop

2011-11-03T12:35:00.002+08:00

So I've spend about a thousand bucks on the last remainder of my car repairs. Now my car is driving well, I'm so happy that there's no funny sound coming from the tires. All I'm hearing now is the engine that screams like a baby. The more you press the gas, the more harder is the grip to the baby's neck, hence the louder the screeches:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Halloween

2011-11-03T12:22:00.003+08:00

So it's the first time i've attended Halloween parties in Kuala Lumpur. I missed the party last year because I was at home with my lover watching movies and I missed it two years ago because I had no life back then:)
So I wasn't planning on going to Frangipani on Friday night but my friend wanted to go, so I ended up dressing up as a person who is "free", my costume was basically 'free' la. Night was nice, mingled with lots of people and had reasonable amount of fun:)
On Saturday night however, was the bomb! I don't really remember much of what happened then but I was a reject cullen/reject Korean Boy band member that night as I wore a black suit accompanied with eyeliner and mascara. I must say that i look quite good with the eyeliner and no wonder why these Koreans are so obsessed with it!
I don't remember much of Saturday night because I drank alot but I did manage to meet SOMEONE hot, whom I don't really remember. But I awoken the next morning just remembering I met someone hot, didn't know the name, forgotten how the person looked like, I just know HOT!
Don't you get those kind of feeling sometimes?

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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My Favorite Ad

2011-10-27T22:08:00.001+08:00

This is by far the easiest Shoot i've done and it's by far the best! I can say that I was a pro at doing this! Well, Pro Drinker!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Browniessss

2011-10-21T15:49:00.000+08:00

So I had a bad day today, started off with a parking fine, followed by parking, followed by some financial problems. Well, you can say that I hate my life right now, i don't deal with stress well.

Which is why i started to think about cooking, well, baking, on how I am going to make my first rainbow cake, macaroons, cupcakes to name a few when I get back to Borneo in November. So the picture above is a Chocolate Brownie that I made myself, plated it myself, and ate it as well, I didn't make the ice cream though but I will consider making the ice cream on my own in the near future :)

Thinking of cooking and sex just makes life better:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Colonial Penang!

2011-10-17T18:47:00.002+08:00

So I decided to take the bus down to Penang for the weekend since I was craving fried Kuey Teow and Prawn noodles for the last two weeks. Would have taken a plane but the hassle of going all the way to the airport proved to much for a guy like me. So i decided to hop on a bus which is just five minutes away from my campus.
I ate fried kuey teow all three days I was there, every day I ate, and ate and ate. I would order various dishes to sample them all because I was just trying to take everything in. Penang is so different from my hometown, It reminds me of an old singapore. I like how many of the buildings are so colonial, I like the fact that the place is surrounded by so many trees.
I stayed in Berjaya Hotel, decent, didn't like the fact that my ceiling had a hole, but the room was cheap in general. I went partying there as well, and generally i enjoyed the city. You should try visiting the place one day, it's a breath of fresh air as compared to the cramped up and stressful Kuala Lumpur!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

My next phone.

2011-10-12T12:02:00.003+08:00

My trusty Curve have lasted me about a year. And it crashed yesterday:( So, since it has gone through millions of my carelessness (dropping it a billion times, running under the rain with it, spilling blackberry juice on it etc), I thought that it's finally time for me to change phones. And I am going to change into the new curve at the end of this year! For sure!

It is super slim and it comes with a 5mp camera, and it runs on the new Blackberry OS7. So yea, I'm going to go on contract at the end of this month to get this phone. Seriously!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

I am so gonna get this for my sisters/mum!

2011-10-12T11:50:00.003+08:00

I saw this Vintage Asprey Lizard clutch in a Vintage Store and man I so want to get it! I'm not going to use it for myself of course (unless I drag), and I look at this and feel like this can look so nice when brought out clubbing or worn with a nice LBD!

Gosh, sometimes I wish i were a girl so i can hold these lovely items!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Unavailable

2011-10-10T17:54:00.004+08:00

I haven't been updating any of my blogs lately. As the only things I wanted to talk about was how depressed I am, I was depressed because I was on a no carb diet, I was depressed because I was fat, I was depressed because I was broke, I was depressed because I was single and lonely.

To cut story short, I was depressed.

I thought about taking xanax cause I have this doctor friend who could give it to me. But then again it went against my principle, I don't do pills, and I got depressed because I didn't want to take those depression pills, and also cause I was worried that I would get addicted to it.

I tried to look at the bright side, and boy I really did. I went back to Borneo and stayed there, depressed that I didn't have a gym to work out in, well, a proper gym, like the ones in KL. But then I picked up a frying pan, and started cooking. And suddenly I was not depressed anymore, I became really really happy, like I forgot about things.

I kept cooking when I went back to kk, it's like you know when you're with someone you really care about, having sex or cuddling or whatever it is you do, and nothing else outside your circle with that person matters? Well, I get that with a person I care about but I also realized that I get that from cooking as well.

If you gave me a fully equipped kitchen, I can say that i am able to whip something up really easily. And I find it funny hwo when I eat, especially outside, I don't only enjoy the food, I think about how to make it as well.

Finally, I found a release that isn't someone to sleep with!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Birthday Weekend

2011-09-19T22:16:00.002+08:00

So I turned 22 last Saturday. And it felt different from turning 21. I decided to remove the birthday notification because I don't see the point of receiving tons of wishes on facebook. And I didn't feel like celebrating it either. However, for my friends and loved ones who did remember, thank you very much and I totally appreciate your wishes. I really really do.

My mother called me on that day, but she never wished me, I guess she must have forgotten. But I don't blame anyone, cause I removed the reminder from my social networking site as well.

I went out partying and I did enjoy.

But my blackberry got soaked in Iced Lemon Tea on Saturday, and now I'm phone-less again:(

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Wanting and getting

2011-09-15T00:19:00.002+08:00

I was having coffee with a good friend a few days ago and we were talking about where we see ourselves ten years from now or how we saw ourselves ten years from when we just graduated high school.

Well, this friend of mine, he sure is something, someone I respect, someone who works hard for what he wants. He was telling me that what he had planned to achieve five years ago had been achieved and now he's planning for his next five years. I'm not that kind of person.

I'm a dreamer. I dream a lot. I drift here and there, not knowing what my future will hold, not knowing what I will be doing.

Many people want to have a comfortable life, who wouldn't want to have a comfortable and happy life?

I think i've talked about it before, about wanting a comfortable life.

I was reading my friend's blog and she stated that, wanting a comfortable life, you need money, and that things that you do today, might not lead you to have the comfortable life that you always wanted.

The thing is about me, I've never really wanted a comfortable life, like I don't tell myself that I want a comfortable life.

Even though right now, as a student, I have my own personal stresses about life and I suffer here and there, I stress about things now and I worry about my current situation, it's true that we all as human beings worry.

But the funny thing is, I never want a comfortable life, I've always had the feeling that I will get a comfortable life, as in, I know I will get it, no matter what i do.

And my definition of comfortable is having a roof over your head, a decent car, and fairly enough money to survive. I don't ask for much, and I know I won't get much, but I know that I will get some, and that some will make me fine:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Please Visit this site!

2011-09-14T12:19:00.003+08:00

There's this cool website I saw that sells bloody cheap headphones! If you're living in Malaysia and is bombarded by very overpriced headphones, please do visit this site at http://plazaheadphone.com as it sells headphones that are cheaper than the retail prices outside. And they're certified originals as well! So do check it out! There are those Dr.Dre earphones that I really like there as well!

I might just get a few!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Enjoying Life a little

2011-09-13T18:16:00.002+08:00

So my dad is visiting Kuala Lumpur and he asked me to keep him company while he was here. It's nice cause he's been staying at nice hotels and it's good to bunk in with him. The room pictured above is the Grand Dorsett Subang and man it is so damn nice! It makes me want to get a room here for a party! But nah.

So far I've been not doing much, just chilling with my dad and eating tons. I watched Miss Universe this morning and got pretty ticked off when Malaysia didn't make it to the top 16. Even though scores are not only based on beauty, I figured that Miss France and Miss China made it to the top 16 not because they're smart. Their answers were very dumb during the interview session on youtube. I guess they're physically better than Miss Malaysia. What I also dont get is why did they have to make Miss Malaysia's hair so big, make her look like she has an armored car in there!
I've also been quite addicted to Cha Time. It's basically like Yoyo Cafe but it costs more and it's not as nice. However, I like the fact that there is an option to have lesser sugar in your milky tea. So i've been hanging out there all the time, well hanging out in the line, cause it's so LONG at taylors campus.

I'll update more soon when i get the time!

Cheers!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

HellO!

2011-09-13T17:52:00.002+08:00

I've been busy updating my new food blog (http://jamesfoodscapes.blogspot.com) and have been neglecting my personal one:( But I've been feeling quite down lately and I bet it's quite irritating for posting up emo posts. However, my dad is down in Kuala Lumpur for a visit and it's been quite nice hanging out with him! Managed to pick up a few things and have also been neglecting my part time job.

I do hope that the mood to get my life started again would come back soon. I need to be making some money!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

p.s. I got fined by the police today. Dammit!

I GOT NEW EARPHONES!

2011-09-08T12:50:00.002+08:00

So ever since my Blackberry earphones screwed up, I've been buying cheap ass earphones, like the Rm15 ones, sounds quite shit, but I wasn't particular. So after going through like three cheap ass ear phones, I then decided to invest more money for a decent pair of Earphones. I got these G-Shark brand in ear ear phones and I must say the sound quality is decent, for bassy songs!
And it also comes with a one year warranty. So I'm quite pleased with that! And for the price i paid it's quite worth it. I wanted to get the Ministry Of Sound Earphones, but the more I thought about it, the more I decided to go for the more 'reasonably' priced pair.

It's not cheap, but it's worth the price:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

First TVC

2011-09-07T13:29:00.001+08:00

This is my first television commercial. You can barely see me. But I'm proud of it nonetheless!

Feeling Better

2011-09-06T14:28:00.002+08:00

Sorry about the suicidal post which I did yesterday. I was feeling really stressed. However, I managed to resolve some of the problems and I am feeling better now. I'm a very bad stress handler and I tend to over think too much. But after working out and settling some stuff earlier today. I feel more relieved.

I'll be back with more interesting topics soon!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Friends

2011-09-05T16:39:00.002+08:00

I'm getting older, my friends are getting older, and one by one we will get hitched one day. I hope that I would get hitched before I turn 30. So I know that this post is long overdue as my good friends Fareed and Melissa got engaged last July, but once more I hope that they have a good and happy life together and I really enjoyed the engagement party!

All my best friends were there and we really did have a good time, It was an eye opening experience for me because one of my friend is actually engaged now! It's such a wonder who's going to be next on the list!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Stressed out

2011-09-05T16:32:00.003+08:00

I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night. I just had so many problems that were constantly on my mind. I can say that I could barely sleep and I only slept for an hour. I wanted to sleep later but when i tried, I couldn't even manage to shut my eye, I just feel that theres something stuck up my ass.

Seriously, I know I worry too much but it's so hard sometimes to deal with all these things, I know my problems will get worse as I get older and I will learn how to better manage myself, but honestly, dealing with stress isn't one of my best attributes and I often come to a point where I can't breath and I just want to let it out.

Sometimes I think of suicide but then again, I would be more comfortable killing myself when I don't leave behind problems for my family rather than killing myself and leaving them tons of shit to deal with.

I know it seems scary that I am thinking about suicide as a whole but seriously, these lonely night lying in my room, worrying, and fearing for no reason, I know it's nothing big, but I can't help but feel this way is just taking a toll on me and I am quite sick of this feeling.

I hope everything will turn up at the near future though:(

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Selamat Hari Raya

2011-09-05T16:28:00.002+08:00

Sorry for not being able to blog as often as I am supposed to. I have just been really pre-occupied with stuff lately. So I would like to wish everyone a Belated Hari Raya Wish and would love to say that I had a decent Hari Raya. I managed to visit my friend Adrien's open house in Klang and also had some delightful Malay Dishes.

Apart from that I've been locking myself at home, rotting away my holidays. I really miss my mother and I really want to see her.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Sorry

2011-09-02T17:46:00.001+08:00

I've been quite busy lately with life in general. But what I did manage to do was to create a food blog! I'll come back here and update as soon as I can!

Please visit http://jamesfoodscapes.blogspot.com and add me up on twitter @jeffreytanggau

Catch you soon!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Hottie Of The Moment

2011-08-09T17:16:00.001+08:00

The Hottie of the Moment is none other than Justin Bee, from what I know, I think that he's from Taiwan, but is currently based in Sarawak Malaysia. About 178cm tall and weights 65kgs. Would any of you like to have him for breakfast, lunch, dinner or supper? :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Kota Kinabalu In Pictures

2011-08-09T17:04:00.004+08:00

So when I think about Kota Kinabalu, I think, Food, Fun, Family, Friends and most importantly, K.K is my home, always have, always will be. What's different during this trip back is that I'm working for the whole month that I'm back in K.K. Time seemed to have passed so quickly and I really didn't want to leave. Here are the pictures that I took during my time back to K.K.

I seriously enjoyed it. And I'm starting to miss it:(

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Small World

2011-07-27T01:08:00.003+08:00

It's funny how interesting life can be. And when I mean interesting, I mean soap opera interesting. I was sleeping with a few people when I was back in Kuala Lumpur. One being this person whom i want to try and maybe get serious with when I get back, so anyway, I ended things with other people except for this person.

And a friend of mine came down to Jesselton for a holiday and I found out my friend was dating my friend whom i wanted to be serious with in KL. I'm not angry, nor am I disappointed. I just find it funny how people are so connected in this world. How we all shared the same things before.

Life is so funny :p

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Getting Stuck in the toilet!

2011-07-15T11:32:00.002+08:00

So last Wednesday I had dinner with the family and watched Harry Potter after (the movie was good). My friends asked me to join them in the club and I decided that I should show face. Since i was already tired, I left the club after half and hour and headed home. I wanted to sleep before 1am. So i reached home, checked facebook for a moment, and my stomach told me that I needed to go to the bathroom.

I switched everything off and headed to my bedroom, you know psychologically, the nearer you get to the bathroom, the more intense the feeling gets. So I went to my room, closed the door, locked it with the pad lock (I usually do that to prevent thieves from entering) went into the toilet, and then closed the toilet door.

After finishing up, I thought about my comfortable bed, as I tried to open the door, it didn't budge. I turned the handle left and right, kept turning it, and it won't open. Everyone was asleep, I was the only one on the second floor, and there was no one in my room. My mobile phone was left on my bed, and there is nothing hard in my toilet.

So i panicked, I took the thickest and hardest piece of toilet reading i could find which is my Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix book and started whacking the door handle till it broke. But i still couldn't open the door. I was so tired that I just lay on the floor and wanted to sleep and wait till the next morning.

But I couldn't sleep. And I was desperate. I wanted to scream, but no one would hear me, and even if i did wait till the morning, my mom would have to get someone to either climb to my balcony, or break my bed room door down, so i started kicking the bottom part of my door, till it broke, and crawled out of my bathroom.

God, after one hour, I finally got out, i went straight to my bed, and passed out!

Sucks to be me.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

K.K

2011-07-13T13:09:00.002+08:00

Apart from work and spending time with my friends, I have been spending time with my family as well! My Nieces are here and my younger sister is flying back as well. So family dinners have been so constant and I get my cousin and my sisters calling me to pick them up and take them somewhere.
However, it's nice that I get to see my nieces again, I am so jealous of the generation after me because they are so beautiful. All of them are of pan asian decent, seriously, all my sisters and first cousins married, screwed or had a baby with caucasians that is crazy!
But getting back here, having a decent car to drive has been quite good to me compared to living in kl! I miss the whole when you come home from work your clothes are freshly ironed and bed made properly. There's always food in the fridge and friends are every
I wish to live here a little longer but I do miss the party scene in KL. I miss the people there but I am appreciating the people and the party scene that I have here now as well, I CANNOT WAIT TO PARTY THIS WEEKEND!
Cheers!

Jeffrey James

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Spending time with Jen & Ness :)

2011-07-13T13:02:00.001+08:00

So I spent my Monday Night with Inessa Ngu (Sabah Supermodel 1st Runner Up) and Jennifer Pedersen (Estee Lauder Ambassador 2009). Sorry for the formal introduction for my besties, I usually call them Jen & Ness. We went to watch a screening of 3 indie short films that were shot by a fellow Sabahan, Jared Abdul Rahman. He was a student at my high school and went on to study overseas.
His short films were pretty alright, all of them were pieces submitted for some film festival that were held in various parts of the world. It was interesting to see him travel around Europe and I really do wish him the best of luck!
It was nice hanging out with my besties again after so long. It's good because we get along with each other well, and to know that our friendship is almost 20 years old. I consider myself lucky to have friends for such a long time.
I do wish to spend time with Ness before she flies back to Perth this Sunday though and I can't wait to party it up with them this weekend as well!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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The Start of My Internship

2011-07-13T12:52:00.002+08:00

Well, basically I'm just helping out with my mom's business but I told her to look at it as an internship. So far the job has been quite okay, time passes by faster than usual and I hate having to get up at 830 in the morning. I try to squeeze my time between gym, work and friends and I end up sleeping at 1am.

I usually get tired by 8pm but I don't want to feel as though I'm wasting my semester break so I try to make use of the time that I have. Working now is a good experience though and I am in a way enjoying it.

Wish me luck! :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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My New place

2011-07-05T16:03:00.002+08:00

So I've moved out of the slums into an upper middle class residence. It's a little far from my normal place but it's fine. I love the pool at my new place though and I was tanning there all alone yesterday! It does seem like a good place to hang out and chill!
I like my new housemates, they're pretty cool and i'm not really finished with all the moving yet but I will be soon though. When i'm happy with my room I'll take a picture of it and upload it! haha! Till then!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

My Weekend with my friends.

2011-07-05T15:55:00.002+08:00

So I spent my weekend with my friends Kainen, Derek, Reece, Lip and May last weekend (separately of course). It was good, I went to fat spoon and wondermilk twice during the weekend and partied my ass off (basically I was drunk on friday and saturday).
The food in Fat Spoon is really good, when i was there with my friend May we had the Red Velvet (pictured above) and man was it rich and good. The day after that we (everyone mentioned excluding May) went back to Fat Spoon for dinner again.
I also spent lots of time with my friend Kainen (former hottie of the moment) and it's been really fun riding his red 206. I've got an announcement to make but I'll wait after i've done the shoot to announce it (however, it's already announced on my twitter!)

So if you like more updated statuses from me, add me up on twitter @jeffreytanggau

xoxo

Jeffrey James

The Sound Of Music

2011-06-27T14:46:00.002+08:00

So I had an interesting weekend. Partied and watched sound of music as well. I've never watched the sound of music before any my friends found it to be quite surprising. The play was good but I'm not really a fan of the movie, I did like one song, "I am sixteen going on seventeen" was the only one that I really liked, the whole time i tried to keep myself interested in the play.

It's not so much of the cast, I just don't really find the whole classical feel towards the play appealing, the songs seems dated and wouldn't suit someone like me who is a very new mainstream kind of guy (think 80s and above music). However, the singing and the acting of the cast was very very good.

I had a good time and I can finally say that I watched the sound of music. But I will say that I've been there, done that, and it's time to move on:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Knick Knacks I found while cleaning my apartment!

2011-06-24T15:38:00.002+08:00

So I cleaned my apartment recently (see two posts below) and found some knick knacks my housemates left behind! Well, they left it here so I guess they don't want it no more. But I absolutely love the topman bag that I found lying around! I love the whole vintage feel of it!

The wallet isn't something i found while cleaning, I bought it from some vintage store, it's Gucci and I got it at a steal! It's really worth it though, the condition of it is quite good and I love how simple it is without the usual Gucci pattern, apart from the logo clip.

I also found a Black Berry cover which fits my phone perfectly! There were thousands of Dvds that I managed to dig up, loads of shoes, that I ended up throwing away, a few dollars, and rubbish, which I disposed of. It's good when you clean a house, and you find things that you didn't think you'd find. I didn't find my old wallet and old car keys though, those are long gone! :(

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Femme Fatale

2011-06-24T15:01:00.002+08:00

My mood at the moment is very unstable, I'm not sure as to why I'm feeling this way, but I can pretty much say that I hate this feeling! I wanted to tear when i was watching Britney Spear's Femme Fatale tour on youtube. I'm not sure whether or not it's because I can't make it to Kylie Minogue or the whole stress of moving to a new place, it's just so tiring, I feel quite lonely.

I'm not sure whether it's due to the fact that i'm single or not. But I know i'm not feeling sad because of my failed 'relationships'. I guess it's the whole what am I going to do thing and trying to organize my life. It's quite stressful. I'm stress but at the same time im not stressed. So i'm not really sure.

It's the whole being alone and not knowing what to do at the moment. Which sucks of course! I'm trying to pass time now and hopefully everything will end up better in the end:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

there might not be tomorrow

2011-06-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

I talked to two of my friends from K.K today and was asking about how everything was going back home. I was asking about grenade as well, well, not exactly on what grenade did or who grenade dated back in K.K but more to the how was their last night in K.K. I was asked to view grenade's profile on facebook cause apparently there's a nice picture but I didn't really wanna look, I clicked on grenade's profile but left it immediately after doing so.

However, I do that with all my exes profile as well, I don't even bother to click on parachute's profile and don't even bother to ask about kissing you's news. But I do still visit warwick avenue's profile though, cause warwick avenue is the only person where I can look at and think as if warwick avenue is my friend, it's as if I'm viewing my friend's profile, instead of an ex.

But the thing with grenade is that so many songs I hear relate to grenade, apart from the bruno mars song, there's the annoying pitbull feat neyo song that is constantly on the radio, I smile when the song comes on, but the thought of grenade will come up and I will smile, but at the same time wondered if things could have been better. However, me, along with many others, still think that grenade is very beautiful!

But then again, there are so many other beautiful people out there. And I'm taking my time to get to know them, slowly. All I have to do now is lose weight and move into my new pad, and fix my car, and worry about my studies! Life's good right?

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

House Cleaning

2011-06-23T12:18:00.003+08:00

I spent like 7 hours cleaning my apartment yesterday and i'm not even done yet. What I can say is that the apartment is shit, rats don't want to live here, worms die living in this apartment. My room is the cleanest part of the house. And my housemates left the apartment like this! (pictured above and below), my apartment was a mini zoo before, I havent cleaned the back (pictured below) yet but I will get to it soon!
The reason to why i'm cleaning is due to the fact that i'm moving out already! So my housemates already moved out and I was left with the dump! I didn't want to move out of the apartment and give it back to the owner while it was in dump condition so I made it a point to clean it before i leave, which is by the end of next week! I'm not done with the kitchen, the rooms and the back yet but I will start with that tomorrow or later today!
Once I was done cleaning up the place, MAN WAS IT A 360 DEGREE CHANGE! It is so clean now that I don't even feel like moving out anymore! And I found a lot of things that I couldn't find before, like some money (alot), a few nice bags and treasures my housemates left behind (whatever they left behind, it's mine now) and threw out like more than 16 HUGE BAGS of Rubbish!
Now as I lay in my living room, I tell myself that maybe I could continue staying here. My ex housemate (who didn't help, but at least helped me throw some rubbish) said that he misses the apartment, i was like "Yea, but if it was dirty you would say that you were glad that you moved out!", Im planning on throwing a party before i leave so I'm excited about that as well!
I'm so not looking forward to the rest of the house! :(

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Singaland!

2011-06-17T20:46:00.000+08:00

So I'm taking a bus down to Singapore for the first time in years! The last time I took a bus to Singapore was when I was like 13 or 14, but I don't really remember that as well because at that time we drove down to Singapore (we has a really comfortable ride then).

So anyhow, I promised a friend that I would accompany him so I decided to take a bus. I've always has a slight phobia for busses that's why I usually fly down. Initially the plan was to take a train, but the night train was fully booked till the 19th!

Then we decided to take a bus, flying was not an option anymore cause the tickets were so damn expensive! So I got myself a ticket using Aeroline (www.aeroline.com.my), it seemed pretty promising and I received good reviews from my friends who took that bus before.

So now I'm here, blogging from the lounge in the bus! The bus has a freaking lounge man! And the 'steward' Is making me hot milo as we speak! I must admit that I am a lil fascinated as I never took a bus like this. There's screens in every seat! And they serve food on board as well! The whole journey is so comfortable like seriously!

There are some bad parts though, as in the reading lights don't work. But who needs it with a personal tv screen that comes with games and a couple of movies and music. There's even an electric port where u can charge your laptops or handphones! I even heard that there's this other bus service that has wi-fi!

I'm gonna take the bus more often, well the safer known ones! However, the bus ticket cost as much as a plane ticket. Sometimes the plane ticket can be cheaper!

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Being Uglehhhh

2011-06-16T14:54:00.002+08:00

I'm fat, I know. But actually I'm fine, I'm just not fit a beautiful like the models or stuff. i remember Kissing You said that one of our friends are fat. And when I saw the picture, the guy wasn't even fat. He's not as fit as he was before, but he definitely isn't fat. It's funny how some people's definition of fat is non fit.

So so shallow. But then again, I'm saying that because im not fit in the first place!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

I was so thin!

2011-06-16T12:15:00.000+08:00

Well, not exactly thin, I was sucking my cheeks in that photo, but I wasn't as fat as I am now. God how I miss the way i was. I'm having an off year this year! God dammit! I shouldn't have went back to kk so much! Only made me fat!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Being Vain

2011-06-16T11:59:00.002+08:00

Okay, when someone tell's you that you are good looking, or leng zhai in other words, what would you usually do? For me rite, I know where I stand when it comes to looks, I don't look like Brad Pitt of course, I see myself along the lines on Lee Hom (Provided I get a stylist, trainer, and people who make me beautiful), but anyway, I attract a lot of Aunties, like they keep saying like "Wow, you're so Leng Zhai!" and I would go like "No la, I'm okay only."

I would like to think that I'm a humble person, but I'm not, when someone whom I'm comfortable with says that I look good, I would go "Of COURSE!" just to be funny. However, I strongly believe in the term beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder though. Whether if we are really good looking, we should always learn to be humble and not bring others down. I learned that in a way, like I when I see someone who lacks confidence, I would therefore not do anything that would bring down their confidence even more, I would support them and help them build it.

But if there is someone who has too much confidence, then that's a another story to begin with. And there's the people who are comfortable with who they are, like me as an example (i have insecurities as well but you know lah!), it's okay to joke accordingly, like insult or be cocky accordingly because I have friends who are comfortable with themselves and we joke about each other.

I was not always comfortable though, but once you're comfortable, you'll learn to not that things personally (i do sometimes, but i try not to) especially when it comes to your physical looks:P

xoxo

Jeffrey Tanggau

END OF SEMESTER MAFAKA!

2011-06-14T13:31:00.003+08:00

So finally, after two weeks of stressing out, I managed to complete all my assignments and I can finally prepare myself to start shifting to my new place! I'm also heading to Singapore this Friday for my well deserved family vacation!

We had a celebratory dinner at some steam boat place and man they had all this deep fried chicken skin, i stuffed myself with it and I can feel the heartburn now, I'm a lil scared though that I will die of a stroke or something! But I'm going to attempt to control my carb intake. I need to lose weight before I go back home!

Wish me luck man!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Current happenings

2011-06-11T10:28:00.002+08:00

I'm currently reading The Inheritance Of Loss by Kiran Desai, it's a story that is set in the north-eastern Himalayas. It's quite good so far, it started off boring at first but slowly as the pages start turning, the story gets more interesting and witty. I've been reading like crazy lately. And I don't plan to stop reading. It's quite a useful habit because it improves one's vocabulary level (and mine is pretty shit).

I also dropped my blackberry and the thingy on top of the screen came off:( but i I went to the convenient store and got some super glue to stick it back. So I have my own patchwork Blackberry. My ear phones are also fucked and I really feel like getting an ipod, but at the same time i saw this nice bag at hugo boss, and also the ticket to Kylie Minogue's concert in Singapore. So it's either one of those, that I have to pick. Which sucks, but oh well.

I've also managed to finish three assignments that were due friday, I can tell you that I was multi tasking like a bitch, switching between three assignments, One Journal, One major essay and one Sound editing drama. I'm here still doing my last one which is due monday, but it's all good! After I'm done facebook-ing, I will start sourcing for articles to read tomorrow:)

Wish me luck ya'll!

xoxo

Jeffrey james

Hottie Of The Moment

2011-06-08T20:30:00.002+08:00

Our Hottie of The Moment is none other than Josh Kua, he's a Malaysian born individual currently living in Melbourne Australia. He's 22 this year and studying in Monash University. With eyes that could Rival Jay Chou, many would think that Josh is the cutest thing that they've ever seen. Which is why he is the current hottie of the moment! Enjoy!

Hope you enjoyed it:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Burning My Educational Oil

2011-06-08T18:06:00.002+08:00

So over the past two weeks i've been spending my days on campus rushing up my assignments. I've got three assignments due on Friday with one being an advertising major essay (50%), Broadcasting Journal (40%) and my Sound Editing Drama Assignment (50%). The scores there are the total marks that each assignment is worth per subject.

So i've been multi-tasking between my sound editing project as well as my advertising major essay, going back into the editing room and studio and then back to the PR lab to complete my essay. My progress does seem promising though but I stay on campus from 8am till 6pm over the past two weeks. I did manage to squeeze in some gym sessions in between.

Since there are two more days till dooms day, I've been stressing myself out over the issue and hoping that I can complete all these bloody assignments so I can focus on shifting out of my apartment! God i'm gonna celebrate when i get everything done!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Somethings are better left unsaid.

2011-06-07T19:35:00.003+08:00

This is a post that is in a way related to a post that a friend of mine posted up in her blog a couple of days ago. Well, a couple of weeks ago to be more precise. My friend was quite pissed off at herself and her ex because of something she heard about him that made her seem in a way like a fool. However, she argued that it also made her appreciate what she has now.

Though I will agree that it is normal to appreciate what you've got when you know how bad you got it before or how other people are not as lucky as you as well.

Last saturday I met up with an ex of mine called Kissing you (See previous post for references), and well, it was nice seeing kissing you again because it's been quite awhile since we last saw each other. I was generally happy that kissing you was doing well in kissing you's life but when it comes to other things, i'd rather not know. It is true that when you break up with someone, gossips will start coming in like nobody's business. Like a friend will say yada yada yada, I heard this person was like this or that. And I don't like hearing those things.

I generally tend to block those things out, whether it's true or not, I'd rather not know. I don't ask who my exes are dating, I don't ask about their private lives, I don't really want to know what other people think of my exes, whether it ended badly or not, I generally don't want to think about them in that way. I just like the image of you know, we got along at some point as lovers, maybe as friends, without the complications of a relationships, we could get along as well.

But as far as my exes' past, present or future love lives, I'd rather not know. Because it's better to save myself the trouble of feeling like a fool for knowing these petty things and just worry about my own personal problem or appreciate how lovely my life is now:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Music Exes

2011-06-07T14:41:00.004+08:00

When I turn on a radio, and a familiar song plays, I would think of my exes. It's funny how when we have a relationship with someone, sometimes, we have this song that would remind us of our 'love'. It's funny how I would listen to some songs, smile when i hear it, or change the channel. So far there are four of my previous 'relationships' that would be reminded when a certain song comes about.

1. Warwick Avenue - Duffy
2. Parachute - Cheryl Cole
3. Kissing You - Miranda Cosgrove
4. Grenade - Bruno Mars

However, the 4th song, that ex would come to my mind when I listen to other music as well. When i listen to California King Bed, This Ne-yo song, amongst others. I would smile, then change the channel! hahaha!

It's so funny how certain music reminds you of your ex.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

looking good

2011-05-27T19:23:00.000+08:00

Looks are everything.

Well, it's everything when you want to make a good impression. You see, I don't really believe that the world has ugly people, just lazy ones, or indie un-mainstream ones. I'm not asking people to look the same, but a good looking person doesn't have to be beautiful or handsome, a good looking person is someone who looks damn good. Even a beautiful person can look dull and/or ugly if they don't try.

I sometimes look good, and sometimes I don't, it depends with my mood, I won't say that I'm handsome, but I can say at times, when I put effort, I can be really good looking.

So can you:)

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

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friends with benefits

2011-05-27T08:10:00.000+08:00

So I like this line whereby when a friend of mine said that I was an expensive slut instead of a cheap slut. I like that term. However, I'm not a slut.

I can consider myself a serial dater, someone who gets in and out of dating. But after my last 'date', I decided that I should stay single for awhile. But ever since my good good friend left, I've been quite lonely here, hence to establishment of the friends with benefits.

I'm not really into one night stands. I'm more into the having friends whereby both of us can get special benefits from one another without having any feeling attached. However, I did get a warning from my best friend ness that there is always one person who has more feelings compared to the other.

I hope that I'm not that person but at the same time I've got a feeling that I will be that person.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

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Eat Pray Love

2011-05-25T13:38:00.002+08:00

So I've been reading like crazy lately (Crazy as compared to before) because I have no friends now (whom I hang out with everyday) in KL and I read to get my mind of things, well, basically to transport myself into the world of imagination.

So I read a book by Elizabeth Gilbert which was turned into a film called Eat, Pray, Love. The film was pretty good, but the book was so much better. At the time of reading the book I was feeling down due to a failed 'relationship'. With me feeling alone, and reading the book, I felt as though I'm not the only one going through this. And that I could relate to the author.

However, I borrowed this book to my best friend who was happy and when she read the book she became sad. So i guess it works both ways. It goes through her journey of recovering, starting with Italy, India and then Indonesia. It's so nice to see how she started to think less and less of her previous problems and started focusing on her life more.

It's a good book to read, it's very easy to relate to the author and you find yourself smiling after reading the book:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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read this!

2011-05-22T02:30:00.000+08:00

I know I've been emo lately. But for a good advice towards me, please visit http;//ness_bahkan.blogspot.com for an interesting post!

Xoxo

Jeffrey james.

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emo

2011-05-21T03:08:00.000+08:00

I'm back in borneo.

And I'm drunk blogging again.

But, I'm feeling indiferent.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

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the whatsapp tone

2011-05-14T09:45:00.000+08:00

I was talking to my friend about a breakup, because my friend was going through in a way a situation before a breakup, like he wants to end it but at the same time he doesn't want to let go. I remember telling him that I know exactly how he feels because I was going through the same situation that he was and that everything will be okay.

It's funny how my friend said that in order to make the 'breakup' easier (following my advice), the deletion of the number would be made of the contact that my friend wishes to forget to make him avoid any temptations of further contact. My friend inessa would totally disagree with me saying that this wouldn't be a healthy option.

Well, from my previous 'relationships', I did just that. I removed any traces of things that will remind me of my ex. Like deleting my ex from my facebook account, deleting their number, etc. It's true that it's not a healthy option. That's why I changed it, I don't remove everything about my ex. I justy remove thing that I feel will make me contact my ex. I deleted the number. But I didn't block my ex. I deleted message history, but I didn't remove them from facebook.

But during this delete number phase, we all hope to hear one sound, the one that comes from the person we're trying to forget. Even though I am better now and I have re-saved the contact of the person I wish to forget, but during out 'good' time we kept contact through whatsapp. So even now, when someone else sends me a whatsapp message and that tone comes up, I will think of the person that I once dated and somehow, I would wish it was that person.

Its like if you two talked on the phone before, when your ring tone goes off you would think of that person first, or when you sms, you would think of that person first when the sms comes in. I hope that my friend will end up well, I'm still moving forward, even though I still miss my friend from kk, I can say that I'm confident enough to put the number back into my phone.

Because I know for a fact that it's over. And that I won't really be as sad as I was when it was ending. I'm not exactly happy now, but I'm not devastated either. I still miss that person dearly. But when things are meant to work out, they will (with dedication and hard work of course!)

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

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But...

2011-05-12T12:45:00.000+08:00

It's funny how things usually turn out to be like. You receive a piece of potentially good news, then suddenly, you get the potentially bad news. Life sucks. But I dont mind la.

I was shortlisted for a commercial shoot recently. But the shooting date is the same as the date I'm supposed to be back home.

It's like i dont mind getting the role, but i don't mind not getting it as well :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Argument with my mind

2011-05-11T11:47:00.002+08:00

I lie on the bed, hugging my pillow, thinking to myself, "why is life so unfair?", it's common for me to be stressed out this way. Usually I would lie on my bed, all alone, or as if i'm alone (when there's somebody beside me) and talk to myself (in my mind). I would keep asking myself why am I in such a situation, why do i feel this way. Usually, the conversation would go like this;

Me: Why do i have to feel this way?

Mind: Because you're the one who made it this way.

Me: I know, but can't life be easy?

Mind: It can, but it's always hard at first.

Me: I feel like jumping out of the window.

Mind: Don't do that, you will cause more trouble to the people you love.

Me: But I hate feeling this way!

Well, this is the argument that goes through my mind most of the time. I'm usually having an argument with my mind, asking it questions, and my mind would give me an answer. My mind is there to tell me not to worry, but I still do. I guess this is just normal. But I haven't been having good luck lately, well, my days are mostly bad, or starting to get bad. I feel it's because we're reaching the middle of the year, i had a good start to the year but now it all seems to be going down hill.

Until I got the call last night, when I finally received one good news. However, I will announce it only when it's really confirmed!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Rush Hour

2011-05-10T10:17:00.002+08:00

So I dropped by my friend's bar @ Damansara called Rush Hour last Saturday, since we still had a bottle there, I thought that we might as well finish it. It was after work, I was exhausted and my friends were an hour late! So the pub's Geisha's came and sat with me, I was quite scared from the girls because I had no particular interest in them at all.

But what I found interesting was that the girls were there to entertain the patrons of the pub. Like they were there to keep their preferable male customers company and drink with them. They would make conversation and play drinking games. Since I was a reader of the book memoirs of a Geisha, I found it quite interesting.

The girls are not cheap, they're paid quite well by the pub. I've never had anything like this before but it was quite interesting that i did.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

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pleasure

2011-05-09T22:41:00.001+08:00

I came home from gym (didn't do weights, just 45 mins of cardio), and came across my housemates whom were cooking dinner. Me, still felling frustrated that I misplaced (I think it's lost) my wallet, decided that I need to eat. I took a two sausages and two eggs, along with four pieces of bread and a can of chicken soup, and started making dinner.

I toasted the bread and pan fried the sausages, I made scrambled eggs with some onions and black pepper, and boiled the soup. Upon finish preparing my dinner, I sat on my bed, in front of a small table, picked up the eat pray love book that I was reading, and started reading away while eating.

The eggs were fantastic along with the sausages. For a moment I felt like I was enjoying life for a short period of time. I wasn't thinking about my lost wallet, nor was I missing my former flame back at home. But at that particular moment, even for a short period of time, I was getting two pleasures, the pleasure of a good book, and the pleasure of a good meal.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

I'm on twitter!

2011-05-09T22:37:00.000+08:00

Follow me on twitter @jeffreytanggau

I know I said I didn't want it but the klroadblock function on twitter is so damn cool!

Add me up!

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Nervous About Work

2011-05-05T13:50:00.002+08:00

I've got my Fashion week gig this Saturday and I've been worried sick about screwing up the event! I've done fashion shows before, but this is so far my first one in KL. And well, the last time i did a fashion show I was quite tipsy and a bit off with my announcements. I'm quite nervous about the event but hopefully everything will go well!

For those of you who want to enjoy two days worth of Fashion shows featuring your favorite brands, do come by on Saturday at 12pm and Sunday at 1pm to the Curve in Damansara. You can visit http://www.thecurve.com.my for more information!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Listen To This

2011-05-05T13:45:00.001+08:00

I hit the pause button on my assignment (Which is due tomorrow) and decided to watch gossip girl and catch up on some songs. Well, I came across Beyonce's latest single called Run The World and damn, it's really good. It makes me wanna dance like Lekisha!

GURLLLLLL!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Drunk bloggih

2011-04-30T15:04:00.000+08:00

It's funny how some people can drunk blog... I did t... Stupid! Sorry! Hahaha ababa!

updated

2011-04-30T02:46:00.000+08:00

I took alcohol. But I didn't smoke. I waited for you. I cried.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

2011-04-29T04:05:00.000+08:00

I was chatting with my best friend and she was telling me that she was experiencing some personal problems of her own. I'm not going into her problems but basically I was also telling her about the problems that I was facing.

I just ended things with this person I was dating. And she asked me if this is the worst I've felt from a 'breakup'.

Well, the answer is no. I've felt worse when my relationship with my 'supermodel' ex ended. I remember crying every night because of that. And the relationship after when I got dumped by my 'entertainment industry related' ex and I went outside and teared in the gym when I was trying to tell my friend about it.

The feeling I'm feeling now isn't new, but it still sucks nonetheless. However, I haven't cried a single bit. Don't get me wrong, I want to cry, I want to let this intense pressure out of me, I want to cry so I can feel that it comes out. But I can't somehow. I've been through worse heartbreaks and thos feeling I'm feeling now doesn't feel strange to me. But I hate it.

However, what I can say is that because of this person that I was dating, I've made the craziest decisions! I've never flown back to see someone a couple of times. That's a first though! But I'm glad that I'm doing better as the days go by. Even though I still feel like shit.

And it was nice having a chat with ness, it did make me feel better. I love you:)

Xoxo

Jeffrey james.

Thought

2011-04-29T03:11:00.002+08:00

Some things are better left unsaid. Some things are better not knowing.

Even though I'm dying to find out. But, I will try and grow up!

Three days without smoking and drinking.

Well, except last night when my friend gave me a glass of rum and coke and i took a sip. He told me is was just coke.

I put the glass down.

I will try my best to quite smoking, and I'm off liquor only until im sure that i dont smoke :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

im a sad person

2011-04-28T12:55:00.000+08:00

It's funny how when you don't want to be reminded of something, everything will start reminding you of the thing you want to forget. When I turn on the radio, and I hear them playing tonight by enrique iglesias, I'm reminded. When I hear grenade by bruno mars I'm reminded, or most top 40 songs I'm reminded. It sucks how this makes me feel shitty when I try to get better.

But I understand it's part of the whole process, and so far, it's been going sort of well, I did however click on that person's facebook profile yesterday and felt like shit, but my friend told me "never visit their profile page" so I'm going to try and stop myself from doing that.

The holiday has been quite good so far but I know that it could be better. I can't wait to go back to kl, I can't wait to be alone and concentrate on myself when I'm there again. Even though I tried to have fun, I seem to not be able to do it. I'm do boring now.

Oh well, I'm going to finish reading my book.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Another Jesselton Love Story

2011-04-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

"When were you ever single?"

Thats the line a friend told me last year when I told him I was dating someone. Well, that person that I was dating, after it ended badly with the ex before him, seemed promising. But it ended during Christmas i guess. Not long after that, I started seeing someone else, who was back in my home town. We did this whole long distance thing for awhile. It all seemed promising at first, I was in love again. Well, infatuation would be the precise words. I was smiling constantly and basically happy 24/7 because I was bitten by the love bug all over again. And then when we break up, and I'm all alone, the love bug comes right back up and bites me, and i'm back. Thats what happened to me all year last year and early this year as well.

So back to this person I was seeing back at home, it happened to quickly, i wanted to see this person so badly, so i booked tickets to fly back as much as i could just so that I could make it happen. The first two times I came back, man, it was awesome, it was great. With the total of about the first time we met, and I came back for four days the first time, and five days the second time, equals to ten days. Those were one of the best ten days for the year. And I flew back the third time. And then it started to go downhill. I'm not saying that I didn't try to make it work, i did, but i expected too much, and made a small mistake, and this person saw me differently after that I guess, and then began to distance this person's self from me.

I got angry, well, i got angry while i was here. I had limited amount of time back home, and one of the main reasons I was back is because of this person. So even though I made a mistake, I thought that there would be some understanding. But there never was. I'm not blaming this thing all on this person, but Im saying from my point of view that I felt seriously unappreciated. From a dream of having two weeks of honeymoon, became two weeks of impatience, two weeks of mood swings, two weeks of feeling shitty about myself. I began to think, maybe this isn't going to work out after all.

This person to me is perfect, sweet, good looking to name a few, but i guess it wasn't meant to be. I had my personal doubts over the time i guess but it's normal. I tried to want to spend time, but I kept being turned down, so finally, i said it was over, but i know the whole idea of over was lingering since i fucked up. So I tried, i really did try, and I really did want to spend time and see if things were going to work out, but i guess it didn't. And I have to move on again. I have another few more weekends back here, well, i got the tickets i bought in advance, cause everything was going so fast, but i guess ill come back, and spend it with my friends and family.

I hate being alone, I hate it. But I think I will try and stay single for the time being, because this recent heart break is enough, i had about three last year, and one more this year. I still remember the song grenade, it was the song that I kept on repeat, and well, it's very ironic because you won't do the same. It's my fault, it's our fault, I shouldn't have turned a very wonderful one night into a possible relationship. It just can't work out that way.

Maybe it's good that I took this holiday, so I could see what direction that we were gonna go to. I guess that direction was the end. But oh well, we live and we learn.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Up and Down

2011-04-25T01:59:00.000+08:00

I hang out with my friends here, but somehow I feel isolated. In my own world, lost in my own thoughts. I made up my mind that I would be like a fisherman, scooping out fish everytime it gets caught in his net. Whenever the thought of him drifts up from within me, I would scoop them out, and scoop them out again, and again, until there were none left.

It would have been a clever system I'm sure, if I could make it work. But when I had even a single thought of him, I could never have caught it before it sped away and carried me to the place where I had banished my thoughts.

Many time I stopped myself and said, "think of yourself"

But it doesn't happen because one way or another, my thought leads me back to him.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Kota Kinabalu

2011-04-23T15:53:00.002+08:00

Its funny how my trips back to Borneo now is far different than before. I used to remember that I isolated myself from my straight friends and hung out more with my gay friends. But being surrounded by gay guys in KL make me appreciate the company of my straight piers in KK more and i've been hanging out with them like crazy.

At one point i thought that their company was boring, but recently i found it to be quite fun and entertaining, hopefully i entertain them as well because we found a common thing that we all can do together!

God, im having so much fun here. And I cant fit my jeans now. I've been drinking beer and eating fatty food everyday :S

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Saturday Night Sensual

2011-04-19T02:47:00.003+08:00

I was asked by my friend Anne to join her at one of her friend's bday party @bubble bar in One Borneo. There was free flow of whisky so being the cheapo that I am, I went along for the free drinks, met up with Fareed and Melissa and we had a nice catch up session, drinking free booze and talking about people that we didn't know. I decided to dress a bit more butch on Saturday cause i wanted to seem less gay for once.
Got pretty smashed and I went down to Waterfront to join my other friends for drinks and drank beer and got treated with jagerbombs! We all headed to times square after that and partied it up in chocolate factory. It was a good night out though, i left early to have supper but my friends continued partying in White room. I knew all of them were pretty smashed because I was also gone!

I am gonna get fat!

xoxo

jeffrey james

Paradise Island

2011-04-19T02:33:00.003+08:00

I woke up today looking out my window, noticing that the sky was looking really wonderful. I was chatting to my friend on bbm about some problem I had. He was telling me to not think about it. Then I brought up the island thing and he said I should do it. I washed up, packed my things and hopped onto a boat and headed straight to the islands.
I managed to get myself an hour of tanning, it was good, real good because when i got to the jetty, and saw the clear blue skies, I just somehow felt relaxed and my problems were not with me for that particular moment, well, basically the whole time I was peering at the ocean, I forget everything and thought about how lucky I am to have such a beautiful city.
I went to this island called Manukan, initially i planned on going there with that special someone but due to some setbacks, i decided i needed the island really badly. And I didn't regret going because for the whole three hours when I was on that island, I didn't think too much. I calmed myself down, and just focused on reading the Memoirs of a geisha for the one thousandth time.
I got back by five in the evening and joined my friends for a fatty dinner and then headed to a friends place for beer and supper. I gotta admit that when i was at my friends place, reality came smashing back in. But at least I can say that my day wasn't all that bad. I needed the islands, i think im going to have a random mountain get away as well soon!

xoxo

jeffrey james

Sunday!

2011-04-19T02:26:00.002+08:00

So I woke up alone and shitty on Sunday morning after a night out partying and getting wasted. Some drama there, some drama here with the added liquor wasn't a good mixture. So i awoken on Sunday feeling all crappy. So, the normal thing any person would do is to fill their time up with random things to do, i decided that I was gonna go down to Tuaran to eat the fried noodles there. So I drove all the way down to that town and had coffee with my friends. Along with a good dish of Fried Noodles.
Night time was more of a challenge for me. I hung out with my friends and one of them found out that their dog died *smarties. I managed to grab some chocolate dessert and we headed down to this Philippine restaurant called Tambayan which is located next to Perodua at Api-api center in Kota Kinabalu. We ordered shit loads of Lechon Kawali (Fried Pork) and we even tried the Balot, which is pictured there. Basically Balot is a traditional delicacy from the Philippines which is a duck egg that is almost nearing it's hatching date.

it was disgusting!

But I had a good sunday though!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

ironic

2011-04-18T02:19:00.000+08:00

I was awoken this morning with a phonecall from a friend whom was in kl. I'm not going to name her for privacy purposes, but I'm just gonna tell you about the whole ordeal. To cut story short, basically she likes this guy and got really drunk from it and did some stupid things, and because she likes this guy, she did some stupid things already even when she wasn't drunk.

I told her to control herself and don't get too drunk, and to not think too much.

That's something I should be telling myself as well. Over the past few months, well, over my past 'few' relationships, I learned that I should not hold back on my feelings towards a person and just do what my heart tells me to do. It works out good and bad but that's normal. Because of my feelings for someone back home I decided I should visit home more often. Not entirely because of this person but because I can spend time with my family as well.

Somehow I have my insecurities, wondering if that person feels the same way I do or whether or not it's all just a scam, on whether I'm just some fling that this person can have during this person's stint in borneo. Because I was in a situation before whereby I was seeing someone similar who said that that person was single but I found out that the person I was seeing was actually attached.

You see, I don't mind if they're attached or not. Just as long as I'm aware of it. I appreciate honesty because I'm honest as well. But its all just self doubts that makes me go crazy.

Now, as I was advising my friend, I started to think about my situation, of how similar our situation is. Well, mine is not as terrible as hers' but there are the common similarities that we share. I was also drunk last night and I did some stupid things, I let my insecurities get the best of me and I think I was an asshole. I woke up this morning feeling guilty about it and I was advising my friend to not think about it but at the same time I was thinking about my own situation as well.

She was telling me that it was hard for her not to think about it and its true, cause its hard for me not to think about it as well. I must admit I got better control than she does but this whole feelings issue is something that is so hard to deal with. Sometimes it's just so hard to handle and we let it get the better of us. I fucked up my previous relationships due to this as well, due to my insecurities, due to me being scared, and its happening to me all over again. It sucks but I'm gonna try again.

Its funny how a prostitute is advising a whore on how to be more virginal. Its the same as the situation I'm in now.

Sigh

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Weekend Trip To Borneo!

2011-04-14T15:24:00.003+08:00

So I had to flew back to Borneo last Saturday due to some things I have to take care of. It was a short five day trip but I had lots of fun, I got to see the person that I'm dating and also see my family and friends. It was all good, ate tons, partied, drank (Sensibly), and just enjoyed home.
I managed to eat my favorite chocolate pudding in BrassMonkey and it is to die for. It is literally heaven with every bite. I ate there with my ex. It was quite good that the both of us can get along so well even though it didn't work out before.
I managed to catch the sunset as well at Sunset bar in Shangri-la's Tanjung Aru resort. Apparently Sigourmey Weaver was in town for some media event, i would have loved to see her but couldn't really offer the time to go and stalk her.
:)
Oh, and on my flight back and flight to Borneo, I had one of the best seats on the plane. I slept on all three rows and the leg room was quite good. I hated the 2 and a half hour wait though! Very irritating!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

update

2011-04-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

I'm back in kk for the one billionth time!

Happy! Wanted to surprise my loved one but we both got surprised :)

Xoxo

Jeffeey james

Behind The Scenes of Ntv7 Bella's Promotional Ad Shoot

2011-04-06T12:10:00.002+08:00

So I got a call last week telling me that I was chosen to be one of the "hunks" that throws himself at the main characters, which are DIVAS in various different shooting scenes. I was a Pilot, A Body Guard and a Bartender as well. It was all a new experience for me because I never shot an advertisement before. So I got to Pavilion by 11 in the morning and the shoot dragged until 2am. It was long, but I enjoyed every second of it. i met alot of people, and learned so many new things!
The shoot took a total of about two days, and there were different themes to it. There was the traveling diva (which required the pilots), there was the shopping divas (which required the body guard, stylists), there was the famous diva (which required a ferrari F430, body guards, and paparazzi), the sex and the city divas, and of course the restaurant divas (chef, waiters and bartender). The show, Bella, which is a women's lifestyle program on Ntv7, needed some promotional advertisements hence the ad shoot.
The budget for this particular shoot is quite high and I am excited to see what the final product will look like! I'll post it up once I get my hands on it!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Hottie Of The Moment

2011-04-06T12:06:00.001+08:00

So I've been stalking people's profile on facebook occasionally. And came across a profile of this damn cute guy. He used to date two of my friends and I remember when i saw him for the first time in this club, I thought, wow, this guy is good looking. So he's our hottie of the moment, his Name is Derek Tan! Enjoy!

Sunday @ Bukit Bintang

2011-04-04T14:24:00.002+08:00

So over the past month I've been a very good boy. Staying at home and wondering why I'm staying at home, especially during weekends. So i decided that I would have a wonderful Sunday out having lunch here and shopping there. I woke up early and headed for the gym got ready and took the train down to town. I chilled at Ben's in Pavilion with Sherliza and Teya and we had lunch there.

We bumped into Kenneth on our way to Market hall and he joined us for drinks. Finished one bottle of wine and started gossiping about our Prime Minister's Wife Rosmah on how she looks like an evil character from a Soap Opera, apparently when she shops in Malaysia, she just points at what she wants and takes it, without paying.

Well, it's just a rumor la. We then did some light shopping after finishing the bottle of wine and continued drinking at LaBodega. I had a pint of beer and then went on to Sungei Wang to pick up my glasses. We had dinner at some dim sum place in Starhill after that.

I know my description is as boring as hell but I did have a lot of fun while I was out yesterday. I haven't enjoyed this much for quite some time now (in kl). I can't do this too often though, a day out in KL could cost me about 500 bucks :S

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Fusion Excel Event @ MAEPS Serdang

2011-04-04T14:20:00.002+08:00

So i recently did an event at Serdang (Saturday), they had some Quantum Power Wristlet Launch. Former Miss Malaysia World Thanuja Ananthan as well as Maggie Loo were among the invited guests. Puan Sri Susan Cheah (Wife of Sunway Group Founder) was also among the attendees for the event. The event was smooth, I tried to end it quickly so we managed to get everything done by 11pm. There was also a Children's Charity Drive during that event and they managed to collect about Rm26k to benefit the Children's Home.
It was tiring, but a job is a job and it was nice. At least i'm working now.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

quote of the day

2011-04-04T11:34:00.000+08:00

"Once you kill a cow, you gotta make burgers" - lady gaga

fake acent

2011-04-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

A malaysia who goes to austrlia for a week comes back and say,

"G'day mate! My name is tan and I've been in ozzie for quite some time now!" (In full austrlian accent).

A white guy who lives in malaysia for the past twenty years say.

"Apa khabar, my name is steve and I've lived in malaysia for the past 20 years. Lah." (In an australian accent).

Its funny how most of us malaysians tend to mimic these american, brit or ozzy accent even when we spend a short amount of time there. I'm guilty of it, many of my friends are as well. I remember when I hooked up with an australian my accent is so damn kin yao! I don't know if the australian could tell but my friends laughed at me. He found it weird that malaysians say "no" in the full austrlian accent as well. Well, he thought that we said it that way too cause I did it so well. Hahahahahahaah!

So right now I'm going to promise myself that my english will remain as michelle yeoh and malaysian as possible even when I speak to white people!

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

we live and learn

2011-04-02T09:47:00.000+08:00

It's funny how sometimes people feel differently when they're with another person. Yes, it is true that when you like someone, you have a different feeling from what you normally would feel. I hate feeling this way and not being able to do something about it! Plus, I watched this movie called seducing mr perfect and daniel henney is the most perfect guy in the world! One can literally melt!

Anyway, back to my original point, my best friends, occasionally get jealous, well, they don't always get jealous, and they know that they shouldn't be, but these sort of feelings can't be controlled, they know that they themselves should keep an open mind about it. Whether it's their boyfriends not calling them back, or their boyfriends letting them party, or their boyfriends missing an appointment and hanging out with their friends because of it.

They all get jealous or annoyed by these things but they know that they shouldn't fuss about these little things. I feel this sometimes, the little irritated feeling or jealous feeling inside. However, it's normal, and like my best friends I shut it down at the deepest part of my gut and suck it up. Because I know it's nothing bad, it's just a small matter and it's the other person's own life, not mine.

We all try to do the best we can. Though 'love' is so complicated. I am still young. And my heart is still growing! We live and we learn!

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

i hate

2011-04-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

I hate telling you that I miss you,
I hate looking at our picture on my phone,
I hate it when you tell me good morning,
I hate it when I wish you good night,
I hate it when I tell you that I love you,
I hate how it makes me feel,
I hate doing all of these things,
Because I do it all from afar.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Official photos from Cass's 21st @ K.K!

2011-03-29T07:27:00.012+08:00

Here are the official photos from Cass's 21st Birthday that happened in Bubble Bar @ Grand Borneo, Sully's @ Times Square, and White Room @ Times Square :) Enjoy!

Quote of the day

2011-03-28T15:08:00.000+08:00

"I may be called Ikan basung (easiest fish to catch), but at least i'm still good to eat:)" Jeffrey James

Cass's 21st!

2011-03-28T14:58:00.002+08:00

So we partied it up last Saturday, I was wasted. Seriously, everyone was wasted. Food was awesome, friends were awesome, everything was great! We started off at Cass's Hotel with a light dinner a unlimited booze. Everyone dressed up, I was wearing sandals :S It was basically a small reunion of friends from all over. We flew in specifically for Cass's 21st birthday. I got in from KL and Jen, Cass, James, Calvin also flew in. It was quite fortunate for us to have Allysa and Evelyn as well who are usually in Australia and Switzerland.

Getting together was awesome, but 2 people were missing. Ness and Tessa would have completed the reunion and I miss them dearly. But it has been a very long time where most of us were back. We partied like it was the old times, like it felt as though none of us really left. As we sat at the bar, chatting laughing and drinking it felt as though we never really left, that even though we had our own personal lives overseas, I never felt as home as I did during the party.

We got to white room at about 10.30. I was smashed, everyone was smashed, I went straight to Jarrod and Rawlins and ordered pasta and a burger and just downed it. Everyone continued to party at times square and I fell asleep on the couch, not being seen by the general public of course. We were quite secluded in our own party zone in the club. But I woke up after that and left immediately. The sleeping part sucked but the person i got to go home with after was amazing.

It was well worth it!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

:)

2011-03-28T14:57:00.001+08:00

:) xoxo Jeffrey James

Back in Borneo

2011-03-26T16:27:00.005+08:00

Two assignments done, one due on Monday, two due on Friday next week. But i'm still back here for the weekend to celebrate Cass's 21st birthday @bubble bar. So it's her birthday today and I would like to wish her a very happy birthday. Originally her party was supposed to be in a yacht but due to it not being up to standards, she decided to throw her party at her dad's hotel.
I would also like to wish my good friend Ateya a very happy 22nd birthday! He celebrated last night. Wish that I could have been there. But I had to fly back to K.K. It was worth it though, we sat at Sully's in Time Square to celebrate with Cass and all of us were back together. It was awesome. Tonight is gonna be great as well.

Ill update with more pictures from the party soon:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

wishing

2011-03-20T00:07:00.000+08:00

So I've been locking myself in my room during the past two weekends. I figured what's the point of going out to party when I don't really need to go and look for someone. I party with my friends of course but none of them are actually here for me to party with. However, each time I lie on my bed, I think about partying, about flirting, about finding the 'prey' for the night, about having fun. Then I get tempted, but then I think about the money I'm going to waste, and that when I actually go to the club now I won't be doing any of those stuff.

I would be talking to some friends. But I can do that during the day.

So I choose to stay in my room, listening to music. Wishing I went out, wishing I was in jesselton partying with my loved ones. I wish for many things. But in relaity, I'm still in my room :p

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

quote of the day

2011-03-18T23:45:00.000+08:00

"I feel sorry for straight guys, because unlike gay men and women who can get sex anytime they want, straight guys have to ask permission from most girl's parents even when they want to go to second base." - jeffrey james

Young, dumb and stupid.

2011-03-18T23:17:00.000+08:00

I came across some racial remark from a caucasian girl, most probably Australian. First, to be fair, she is 18 this year. Still young, she's living in Malaysia, and is currently studying law in taylors university. Here's an interesting fact, pretty much the whole malaysia will want to punch her on the face during the next couple of days.

To be fair, she's stupid. Her name is Angeline Marri Austen. And young people make stupid mistakes, I made mistakes before as well.

She commented on her friend's status which stated that her friend didn't like durian. She then went on to say something like "euw. That's disgusting, only jungle people eat that!".

Someone then commented saying that its quite insulting for her to say such a thing. And that it was stupid of he to do so. And she came up with such a stupid answer each time, with every one of it bashing Malaysia and the people living in malaysia such as the malaysians don't even have enough money to feed themselves that's why they need foreigners like her in the country, she wants to spit on malaysian chinese people who most probably got of the boat from china to name a few.

My best friend ness, said that its stupid to argue with stupidity. Because it's true that there's no use to keep arguing with this idiot teenager because she won't change her mind anyway. And by doing so, there will be a lot of unnecessary anger over such a small issue. But honestly, I would be very angry and would like to continue telling her to open her eyes because of what she said. Without using proper facts and saying such hurtful things about a country which she is living in as a 'guest' is like being a guest in someone's house and telling the owners how shit the house is.

But then again, she's only 18. Doesn't know what she's talking about and is most probably dummer than most malaysians or as dumb as the malaysians who think that westerners are better than them.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

*i don't hate westerners by the way. I just don't look up to them. I look at them as equals, just like how I look at different people from different nations :)

Hottie Of The Moment

2011-03-14T13:15:00.003+08:00

I came upon these pictures when I saw it appear on my phone. When I clicked the profile on facebook, I can't view her bloody wall. However, I still managed to see the photos and they are fierce! This girl is known as Kristine Kim Tanggau and she is 18 years old. She is my sister and yes, she put me on limited profile on her facebook. She's currently studying fashion design in Esmod Jakarta and the outfit she is wearing is created by her fellow student. I like the shade of purple though, it's very nice! The editing and the back ground makes it look good. Anyway, here are some photos of my younger sister.

To get to know more about her, please visit her site at http://www.kristinekimtanggau.blogspot.com

xoxo

Jeffrey James

life

2011-03-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

While I was in singapore, I partied with my friends there.

Today, I found out that he passed away.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

crossing swords

2011-03-12T12:28:00.000+08:00

This is an extension of my friend's status update that states that crossing swords (sleeping with the same people) is not uncommon. Everyone has either slepts, or going to sleep with someone who slept with someone they know. Which got me thinking. Last night when I stayed in, ordered pizza and watched gossip girl on dvd, I kept asking myself why has all the characters slept with one another? Its like the most unlikely characters, blair and dan are going to hook up. Its like nate slept with serena who slept with dan who slept with vanessa who slept with chuck who slept with vanessa who also slept with nate who slept with blair who is also going to sleep with blair who has slept with chuck as well.

Its confusing at times, but a friend told me before that he wanted to sleep with his best friends. I never had that feeling because my best friends are just my best friends, nothing more. Then came the status update of my friend about crossing swords. It's true that we slept with the same person before but we thought it would end there. But it turns out this person I've slept with also wants to sleep with him. I don't mind of course but its funny when I think about it.

Its like I slept with person A who slept with B who slept with C who slept with D who slept with my friend B who slept with C who slept with my friend who slept with A as well who slept with me. It feels as though the community is so big but it actually is quite small. The young, beautiful and fabulous scene in any city are so small that everyone is hooking up with everyone. Sure, its not really like gossip girl but I can understand where the author got the inspiration from.

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Have you ever wanted something so badly?

2011-03-10T12:33:00.002+08:00

Well, I was picturing an outfit for an upcoming party which involves camel trousers (folded), white cotton shirt tucked in, nice brown belt (slim), and a nice pair of brown gladiators. I was walking around one day in a mall looking for the pair of sandals. I couldn't find it.

So I went to Pavilion Kuala Lumpur and was walking with a friend of mine, we walked into the store, me, having given up on finding that pair of sandals, saw it displayed there. A black one and a brown one. I asked for the brown one, they ran out of my size. I asked them if they might have it in another branch, they did. I booked the sandals for pick up the next day.

I slept thinking about it. I woke up thinking about it. Went all the way to town, and picked it up.

Things people do for nice things.

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Poor Sally:(

2011-03-09T16:54:00.003+08:00

I'm driving a 2005 Green Colored Proton Savvy. And yes, I haven't started it for six months because I lost the car keys. I lost both the original and a spare. And cars these days (Proton Waja and above, Perodua Myvi and above, and all other cars) have a special chip inside that allows only the keys to start the car. If you made a spare and there isn't any chip inside, you still can't start the car. So if you've lost both your keys, you're screwed.

I had a hard time sleeping last night because I kept thinking about what was going to happen. I felt like something was gonna go wrong. And when the tow truck came at 10am, it couldn't tow my car because it was a different kind of tow truck. I had to call for another towing service (one that can tow my car) and finally, three hours later, they showed up. I got to Proton (missing my 10.45am appointment) at 1.30pm and they told me to come back at 2pm. I literally wanted to scream at the staff there. But I held it in.

Finally when I got to see the staff in charge, they took me to access the damage and the repair. I found out the price was way below what I thought it would be. And the car will be done in two days. So being happy that it all turned out well, I left the place and headed for an early celebration meal (i had rice).

Hopefully things will remain well:)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

updating then removing

2011-03-08T10:25:00.000+08:00

It's funny how I feel better after ranting about someone. Posted it up on my blog, and feel relieved that I finally manage to get it out. Then after awhile I take the post down again.

I just don't want to cause drama.

Boy I got so many posts saved under drafts that are so interesting to read because I talk about all my exes (those who are smart enough to ready my blog, or those who still care), some friends, some people and about some things. If all of them were to be published, readership would go up up up!

But then again, life might suck after:)

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Plans Plans Plans

2011-03-04T12:57:00.002+08:00

I like someone. That's all I can say.

And I'm going back home to Borneo more often because I like this person.

And also because I miss my family and friends of course.

But with that person in mind as well.

God I feel like a school girl :S

xoxo

Jeffrey James