The evolution of my Macaroons :)

So i came back to Borneo with a goal, which is to learn how to make Macaroons:) I remember my first attempt. When I screwed up the whole batch (pictured above). I remember looking at it and thought that it was so ugly. All this while I thought that making Macaroons was easy. But damn it was quite hard.
The second batch got mixed up so in ended up looking like some form of cookies instead of macaroons. It still tasted like macaroons, but in terms of looks. It was quite off.
I made these third batch of pink macaroons with Ness and they turned out pretty good. We flavoured it with red bean filling and honestly, they looked suuper cute!
I made this light blue macaroons on my own, and they're quite nice, i didn't have time to make the filling so I filled them up with Peanut butter!
These are my recent ones. I tried the whole Christmas theme by adding green and red. The softness of the macaroon cookie was perfect as it just melts in your mouth but I screwed up the strawberry filling. Oh well, better luck next time :)

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Only time can tell

I was talking to my best friend about relationships. From what I know her relationship seems stable. And I somehow envy her cause she has an understanding with her boyfriend.

I am now in a relationship, and I am known as a serial dater. But with this new relationship that I'm getting into, well, it can get emotionally draining. However, I am happy. I'm learning to adapt to this relationship and I am learning from my past mistakes. Like I try not to take things too personally and I try my best to let things go. Like I used to get angered by the smallest things, especially when they don't go my way.

But now I just take it in, breath for awhile, and let it go. Especially if it's something small.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect now but I am trying to work on it. Because in a relationship we work on the relationship and work on ourselves, not really for the other person, but to make us a better and more understanding person.

I'm doing this for myself because everyday is a new experience for me and I am learning more as I go deeper into this relationship. I really care for my partner and I really want to make this work. And so far, I can say that it's going reasonably well:)

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Jeffrey James

I'm the Queen Bitch!

So I attended the PhotoShoot for the Miss Universe 2011 finalists. Bear in mind this is a special Miss Universe and not the real kind that is organized in KK. So I am the emcee for the event and I decided to fool around with the crown. Since I'm the Queen and all:) But it's all for good fun and I really love the shoot!

I'm getting a little meaty though:(

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Jeffrey James

I was contemplating on something an ex said to me earlier. I was talking about how serial daters are better than being a slut. But my ex made a good point, it isn't good to be a serial dater because whenever u date someone, you give a part of yourself to that person. So the more you date, the more you lose yourself and maybe eventually someday, there's nothing left to give.

So, dating is very draining, it's so draining emotionally and mentally when it doesn't go well. But of course, there are the good times of dating, which is why people, which is why I always like to date. I get excited with every new 'relationship' that I get into because the honeymoon period is just so awesome! It's not really a bad thing but that's something that needs to be worked on because it isn't healthy.

Like right now, I'm so drained emotionally and mentally but the other person isn't the one to blame. It just reached to the point where it seems like there's nothing left to talk about. But then again, I could be bi-polar. I could be emotionally unstable and I could be worrying too much.

But I will see how I can work this out and see what I can do. I guess I just gotta sleep on it :)

Xoxo

Jeffrey james

Language?

Before you proceed with my post, read this first http://www.themalaysianinsider.com/malaysia/article/muhyiddin-decision-on-ppsmi-final/

So the article basically talks about how they are switching the teachings of Mathematics and Science from the usage of English to the usage of Malay. In general, they're switching the teaching back to Malay after only switching it to English a few years back.

A lot of people are angered by this, well the people who commented on Facebook. I got a little bit irritated by the fact that people are angered by this, I brought up China and Japan and said they were using their national language as their first language in teaching science and maths and they argued that it's not important for them cause they're the second and third largest economy in the world.

But honestly, even though converting back to Malay is a hassle and I don't agree that the government is switching the teachings back and forth, I have no problem and actually prefer Mathematics and Science in Malaysia being taught in Malay, the article further explains that the command in English can be improved in various other ways that don't require the usage of Maths and Science being taught in Malay. And it's true, It's good that they realize this issue.

However, I don't agree on the Deputy Prime Minister condemning the PAGE group as they are minorities in this issue, everyone deserve to be heard, and to be put down fairly instead of how he (DPM) handled it. If he were more diplomatic, he would have put them down in a more positive light saying that there are other methods of learning english and keeping the malay language rather than calling them 'Ketinggalan Zaman' (Backwards).

I am a proud Sabahan, and I am proud that I speak three languages, Fluent English, Reasonably good Malay and Mandarin, I wish the Sabahan Government implemented that students in Sabah have to learn the Kadazan language, I would have love to learn the language.

But when it comes down to Mathematics and Science, it all comes down to the syllabus, not on what language it is being taught in.

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Jeffrey James

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Delusional

A friend of mine told me that someone bitched about me behind my back. And i replied by saying that it doesn't matter if people bitched about me. As long as the people who means the world to me (family, close/best friends) still love me for who I am, then the rest of the world can go and screw themselves because I don't care about what they think.

In all honesty, when i heard that someone bitched about me, it did hurt a bit. But when i really thought about it, it didn't matter. I didn't want to know who was the one who bitched about me and I chose not to care. We all live in a world where people talk about other people behind their backs. I'm not saying that I'm guilt free when it comes to these things, but I can honestly say that for people who are close to me, I don't bitch about them.

So today my friend told me the identity of the person who called me 'delusional' among other things. From a certain point, I am delusional, but I don't like that term, I prefer the term dreamer. I tend to dream alot about things that I want to get, and I know where I stand in life and even though I don't know what my future will be like.

However, when I thought about it, I never really talked bad about this person, and from what I know from the supposed 'friend' who bitched about me is that, he is no better than me, I am no better than him. Everyone bitches about everyone but at least I know who I will not be calling anymore.

Xoxo

Jeffrey James

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Savvy Into the Shop

So I've spend about a thousand bucks on the last remainder of my car repairs. Now my car is driving well, I'm so happy that there's no funny sound coming from the tires. All I'm hearing now is the engine that screams like a baby. The more you press the gas, the more harder is the grip to the baby's neck, hence the louder the screeches:)

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Jeffrey James

Halloween

So it's the first time i've attended Halloween parties in Kuala Lumpur. I missed the party last year because I was at home with my lover watching movies and I missed it two years ago because I had no life back then:)
So I wasn't planning on going to Frangipani on Friday night but my friend wanted to go, so I ended up dressing up as a person who is "free", my costume was basically 'free' la. Night was nice, mingled with lots of people and had reasonable amount of fun:)
On Saturday night however, was the bomb! I don't really remember much of what happened then but I was a reject cullen/reject Korean Boy band member that night as I wore a black suit accompanied with eyeliner and mascara. I must say that i look quite good with the eyeliner and no wonder why these Koreans are so obsessed with it!
I don't remember much of Saturday night because I drank alot but I did manage to meet SOMEONE hot, whom I don't really remember. But I awoken the next morning just remembering I met someone hot, didn't know the name, forgotten how the person looked like, I just know HOT!
Don't you get those kind of feeling sometimes?

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Jeffrey James

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My Favorite Ad

This is by far the easiest Shoot i've done and it's by far the best! I can say that I was a pro at doing this! Well, Pro Drinker!

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Jeffrey James

Browniessss

So I had a bad day today, started off with a parking fine, followed by parking, followed by some financial problems. Well, you can say that I hate my life right now, i don't deal with stress well.

Which is why i started to think about cooking, well, baking, on how I am going to make my first rainbow cake, macaroons, cupcakes to name a few when I get back to Borneo in November. So the picture above is a Chocolate Brownie that I made myself, plated it myself, and ate it as well, I didn't make the ice cream though but I will consider making the ice cream on my own in the near future :)

Thinking of cooking and sex just makes life better:)

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Jeffrey James

Colonial Penang!

So I decided to take the bus down to Penang for the weekend since I was craving fried Kuey Teow and Prawn noodles for the last two weeks. Would have taken a plane but the hassle of going all the way to the airport proved to much for a guy like me. So i decided to hop on a bus which is just five minutes away from my campus.
I ate fried kuey teow all three days I was there, every day I ate, and ate and ate. I would order various dishes to sample them all because I was just trying to take everything in. Penang is so different from my hometown, It reminds me of an old singapore. I like how many of the buildings are so colonial, I like the fact that the place is surrounded by so many trees.
I stayed in Berjaya Hotel, decent, didn't like the fact that my ceiling had a hole, but the room was cheap in general. I went partying there as well, and generally i enjoyed the city. You should try visiting the place one day, it's a breath of fresh air as compared to the cramped up and stressful Kuala Lumpur!

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Jeffrey James

My next phone.

My trusty Curve have lasted me about a year. And it crashed yesterday:( So, since it has gone through millions of my carelessness (dropping it a billion times, running under the rain with it, spilling blackberry juice on it etc), I thought that it's finally time for me to change phones. And I am going to change into the new curve at the end of this year! For sure!

It is super slim and it comes with a 5mp camera, and it runs on the new Blackberry OS7. So yea, I'm going to go on contract at the end of this month to get this phone. Seriously!

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Jeffrey James

I am so gonna get this for my sisters/mum!

I saw this Vintage Asprey Lizard clutch in a Vintage Store and man I so want to get it! I'm not going to use it for myself of course (unless I drag), and I look at this and feel like this can look so nice when brought out clubbing or worn with a nice LBD!

Gosh, sometimes I wish i were a girl so i can hold these lovely items!

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Jeffrey James

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I haven't been updating any of my blogs lately. As the only things I wanted to talk about was how depressed I am, I was depressed because I was on a no carb diet, I was depressed because I was fat, I was depressed because I was broke, I was depressed because I was single and lonely.

To cut story short, I was depressed.

I thought about taking xanax cause I have this doctor friend who could give it to me. But then again it went against my principle, I don't do pills, and I got depressed because I didn't want to take those depression pills, and also cause I was worried that I would get addicted to it.

I tried to look at the bright side, and boy I really did. I went back to Borneo and stayed there, depressed that I didn't have a gym to work out in, well, a proper gym, like the ones in KL. But then I picked up a frying pan, and started cooking. And suddenly I was not depressed anymore, I became really really happy, like I forgot about things.

I kept cooking when I went back to kk, it's like you know when you're with someone you really care about, having sex or cuddling or whatever it is you do, and nothing else outside your circle with that person matters? Well, I get that with a person I care about but I also realized that I get that from cooking as well.

If you gave me a fully equipped kitchen, I can say that i am able to whip something up really easily. And I find it funny hwo when I eat, especially outside, I don't only enjoy the food, I think about how to make it as well.

Finally, I found a release that isn't someone to sleep with!

xoxo

Jeffrey James

Birthday Weekend

So I turned 22 last Saturday. And it felt different from turning 21. I decided to remove the birthday notification because I don't see the point of receiving tons of wishes on facebook. And I didn't feel like celebrating it either. However, for my friends and loved ones who did remember, thank you very much and I totally appreciate your wishes. I really really do.

My mother called me on that day, but she never wished me, I guess she must have forgotten. But I don't blame anyone, cause I removed the reminder from my social networking site as well.

I went out partying and I did enjoy.

But my blackberry got soaked in Iced Lemon Tea on Saturday, and now I'm phone-less again:(

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Jeffrey James